im xinD, im difficult

I have nothing else

2012-01-31T21:19:00.001+08:00

I, knock on the door, hope isn’t home
Fate’s not around the lucks all gone

2012-01-09T23:26:00.001+08:00

What phuket was about

A brand new year yet again 2010

2012-01-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

Oh hello 2012 !

Despite the radical open topic on the end of the world , lets hope 2012 will be the last of tormenting suffocation of books pens and audio lectures !

Ps : hello from phuket :)

To mailliw

2011-12-27T01:23:00.001+08:00

How do i express this , i promised you a blogpost and here it is .
During the hardest downfall in the year, you stood out from the crowd and stood by me . This was yet the least unexpected moment . The guy whom seemed silly queiet and calm , tok the stage and claimed his beliefs. Its not suprising the close friends around me drfting away,so it was basically another phase she thought where it would be repeatible .

Day by day ......
Brunch coffee random trips
It took me off guard, to the point qhere my deepest darkest secret is being shared to this stranger.

This stranger became my asset. An asset which shouldnt be lost. Even if it did , you noe i wish the best for you.

Your friendship is untradable. Thanks for being there for me sincerely .

My best friend :)

Recent obsessions

2011-12-22T03:24:00.001+08:00

Time oh time .... Where have u been? Do u dislike me so much? Youve been running away so quickly , to the extend where i can no longer keep up.

Spare me , slow down and allow me to accumulate memories with the people close to me ...

Anyhow, ive been currently obsessed with simple leather patent goods !!!from balenciaga bracelets , ysk clutchs to marc jacob accesories !!!! Time to accesorize and keep to the basics for sunmer !! Colours colors colours !!!!!

Ok nights !

Freedom of tormentation

2011-12-17T18:18:00.001+08:00

I finally found an excuse to express all my feelings
Loneliness slowly increases as im left in silence in the corner of the dance floor
Whether you say too little or too much , it still make me feel verry terrified
Who granted you anything?
Who indulges in it ?
Who would let u scott free
Im left hanging in your cold hearted and ruthless game
Im left nothing yet i have to endure it with a smile
Im jealous of your love , lofty as a rainbow
Youre the royalty whose popularity which never talters
The one you wanted wasnt me , but someone with vanity
Someone who cherishes you and seems to stand out frm the crowd
I sank absent minded into sufferance from this crazy stage
Youe succeeded in being the king that thousand of people dote on,mine deeply
If love is only there as a temption,we both must endure
And stop tormenting each other coz of our mistakes.

2011-12-15T12:36:00.001+08:00

dear rain, give it a break ! Im done !

2011-12-06T23:22:00.001+08:00

Flaw;
How can you be the one when you cant even settle your own problems.
How am i to open up when you are being so upset yourself
How can i even rely or depend on you when you dont even know how to fulfil what it needs
How can you like someone based on just unstable feelings

Best to walk away now baby

*dailies two

2011-12-06T09:42:00.001+08:00

Heres my weeekend

U make me... Twist a beat

2011-12-02T12:55:00.003+08:00

Give me a good reason to move on and ill do it , esp when the relation is not supplying what i need.

*dailies

2011-12-02T12:55:00.001+08:00

This concludes my thursday ... So bring the weeekends on .... :) have a good one my loves. Xx

*stereosonic 11

2011-12-01T14:50:00.001+08:00

Lucky to be in the haus wid lmfao, dash berlin,benny benassi , armin,avicci, afrojack with the loves , that concludes my weekend and yours? Xx

2011-11-26T01:47:00.001+08:00

🌟😱

2011-11-25T07:33:00.001+08:00

Random blues

*foodlah:poppo restaurant

2011-11-25T07:22:00.001+08:00

Cheap eats in the house ! :) a must try:special roll and fuit sushi roll:)

*foodlah:gucce applecross

2011-11-25T07:21:00.001+08:00

Price absolutely reasonable:) and food was yums ! Dun miss out the semi freddo as dessert :$

2011-11-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

What keeps me goingthru the day

Zigzag

2011-11-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

Im glad you came...

2011-11-16T15:59:00.001+08:00

The day off

Finds thirty love

2011-11-15T10:07:00.001+08:00

The weekend away..summer holidays are progressively abused.'my internship checked from myto do list, holiday ticckets ready to be departured. Whats more? The money makin season. Dear2011 slowdown, as 2012 would be slowly buryingyou alive and im not redi for that yet

*the replenish

2011-11-05T18:02:00.001+08:00

Remeber that girl who used to be so dependent on her soul...
Well she still is, but when u look and feel closer during her presence, a sense of lonesome will be tingling along your spine..
She constantly reminds herself:Tell them everything is worth it and that the richness of life is only ever enhanced by its inevitable, brief flashes of sadness and loss.
Deep constraints of her own faint thoughts. Why is she her stuck in this situation again? Why does everything evolve around a cycle...
Friendship or the one you love.
Why does this question even have to occur ?
Judgement and assumptions Complicates the whole messy situation.. The consequence of such incidents, cemented herself a huge wall of barrier between society in general. No more .. Enough is enough. Let her live and breathe.

Say goodbye to tht little lurking weakling

Xx

2011-10-25T21:00:00.001+08:00

its gettin really quiet here, aint it ?

finals in two days,
be back then
:)

whatever it takes,

careers my up tight priority the rest can wait. .

big boy rides, big boy ices, save it , ill catch up !

* tame tame tame

2011-10-08T12:39:00.002+08:00

tame your soul ,
and i adore you because youre a no-body.

and what you see are not shattered streets,

but rather, within you, your own crushed walls,

your frustrated infinity, again the city comes

crashing down: in your silence, only water's threat

faded smile and possesing karma

2011-10-01T15:26:00.003+08:00

this certain situation is driving her crazy. one moment she could feel hopeful and have a positive sense of anticipation. the next moment, she feels doomed and everything is about to fail. its inevitable that shes ordinarily a very balanced person, its in her nature. she doesnt allow emotions to seesaw in this way. but right now the potential threat or reward is so great that she has given in to fear and worry, and its putting a huge strain on such a quick occasion. the feeling of insecurities and craving stability is invading the onced balanced mind. maybe its the lack of pragmitical sense of miind.

karma can be a bitch , and she's feeling the burning fire penetrating through her emotions. should she be happy that things are moving on ? but why is the fear and tear overrides such thoughts?

maybe he was right,

' deep inside you know that you still miss me' ,

this was why she kept coming back.

This time it would be different, the once warm hearted opened door, has now shut upon its timeframe. promised and stated words,'ill never find another, and be alone for the rest of my life' ,is being backfired.

but what if. . . . .

she wanted it all back ?

a given chance, to restart over.

realistically, it may all be too late.

late, the door has shut, not a glimpse of light is piercing through.

she wishes him well and pretentiously happy for him on moving on .

goodbye,mybelovedboy

i wrote you a letter, but my ego is not allowing me to send it .

westonia, you were there.

2011-09-18T13:30:00.008+08:00

this is where i spent my tute free week . . up in westonia, a little mining town . :)
and below are captured moments from ze eefone :)
hope you had a good weekdn loveerlies.

2011-09-01T02:37:00.003+08:00

over the pass months, boulder of challenges have literally knocked down. due to this a tough nutshell of mine is formed, hence creating a less vulnerable and more cynical self. its time to let go of old feelings that no longer have a use for in this. those feelings might include regret over a path not taken , or probably anger at someone who betrayed the trust, or maybe sadness over someone whom let me down. while at it, letting go of self doubt, guilt over poor choice or an error in judgement comes vital. when all these useless emotions are shed away, the dazzling person in me shines. dreams will be free to reach and waiting to be revealed. believe me.

Suffocation

2011-08-29T18:26:00.002+08:00

There is nothing simple about being in a relationship. Nothing even remotely complex about it either. Yet why do people mix up the responsibilities of being a partner and that of being a parent to another?

Care.

Just one word.

We all know it. But does that really give anyone the right to try and have full reign over another person's life? To get upset over petty things like style of dressing and the type of hair colour.

A lot of things are in my mind.

But the words of a close friend just keeps ringing in my ears.

"hahahha. you like dating your father only. he just wants to show his masculinity la. aiya. cute la both of you. but how can you tahan? just walk away la. he's not a real partner"

i know he's right.

but this phrase in cantonese is just such a pain sometimes.

"mm seh tak"

is there an english translation to it?

i guess the closest would be "don't have the heart to" but thats not really the words.

but we all go through it at one point or another.

and it really can bring so much demise sometimes.

im so suffocated.

ive forgotten who i am.

2011-08-23T10:15:00.000+08:00

little speaks from the heart.

thats all ill ever be able to do .

2011-08-21T01:56:00.004+08:00

FLASH.

saturday. now. right here, in bed writing. unflown words.

in the pass couple of days, things have began to fall apart.negative energy has been holding me back, it has been blocking my progress. it has come to a point where ive realised that i may have taken too much of a burden recently. Firstly , yes i do it for the best intentions,most likely doing the right thing with a commitment, and possible to help others out of the jam. and today, it has finally hit me. ive got to delegate some of them, my mental appearance doesnt seem to be holding up anymore. '' the way you treat people, reflects on how people will treat you '', god that quote just keeps playing in my mind. Friends you say , they do come and go. its perfectly unfair, the people close to my hearts are miles away from where i am,mentally they comfort me, but it would mean the world if they were physically close by my side.

on the other hand, maybe ive been too ambitious on dreams which are implausible . at first, my passions to achieve my goals seemed realistic, but as ive gotten into the more challenging aspects,thoughts of giving up kicked in. At the same time, if i do give up, ill have to deal with regret for a long time to come. STUCK.

Tonight, the drive home was different. Familiarized roads, traffic, signs. Tears streaming , as i hung up the phone. Dissapointments made. Trying hard to keep on speed limit, and suddenly a nasty thought came in mind. what if ive actually steered a little to the left, accelerating , and into the lamp post. Horrified.

theres so much that i should learn to let go. let the petty grievance fall by the wayside. learn to keep up with ending conflicts with a smile and a compassionate approach. Learn to stop lingering on problems and regrets. If i even did learn to sheer my mind and spirit away from the annoyances of life, BLISS.

choices ,everyone opt to make the right ones.

and i choose the right one tonight,

i lived and here i am writing.

but for tonight ill try repelling the bad vibrations by exuding the goods.

And by that, im turning the world away for awhile.

social networkings , turned off.

whatsapp , bbm , OFFED.

hiatus mode ON

good night world.

noctures

2011-08-19T20:51:00.002+08:00

have a good weekend ;)

Even my smile has a shadow

Jeers at my sadness

Like a dry well without water

I use a sad but beautiful font

To describe that love that is too late to regret

mad hatters

2011-08-14T21:37:00.003+08:00

another weekend gone.
time should just slow down.
its triggering a self-mode implosion in my mind right now.
tripping on upcoming assignments!gotta get my gear on!
uni late nights are back in trend again, way ahead before the exam periods.

gah. ive ntg in mind, exp you :)

good night babies.

not an opinion but a rewrite.

2011-08-06T16:54:00.004+08:00

frozen fingers and feet were quickly diminished into the warmth given. sheets tangled and so were they,twisted and wrapped inside the warmth of each other. the moment swell between laughter, soft whisper and some silence; the perfect resilience moment. her little fingers grasps between his blushing cheeks gently. each movement felt so clear as though as it was a movie viewing from another angle. nevertheless, it is taking in every bit of this new person that scares her and she wanted so badly to retreat and not allow herself feel this vulnerable, when the predictable outcome could led to another pain. it feels all too familiar to her but so much better. the game plans immediately changed, when one night she realized that everyone deserves a chance. for once, she's drown in confusion. Her thoughts are erratic and change with every word she jot downs.

should the chances be taken ?

why let this beautiful stranger in , when she has never let her guards down to any other before?

why was it this person that she succumbed to ?

how did she get here?

but for now all she can hope for is that this time- it doesn't hurt as much.

just another hit and run ?

2011-08-01T01:15:00.004+08:00

hi ! im i what you're looking for. . because you've got the arms I want to be wrapped in, the eyes I want to get lost in, and the voice I want to wake up to every morning.

你不应该想他了...我应该继续前进

ps: i died a little inside , knowing that it would be monday tomorrow. Dear time, could you slow down just a little , i cant keep up!

nights xx

* the world at my hands.

2011-07-26T00:07:00.003+08:00

i was contemplating if i should post this picture as my header. anyhow, i couldnt decide, and decided to post it here instead. you'll understand why i love this photo,

first, it was shot by andyshoots.me :)
second, the effect of sunlight filtered through the len
thirdly, the moment when we captured this photo! people were staring and wondering what are these young lads up to. :)

sydney i hope i've managed to capture your heart through this photo :)

and obviously credits to andyshoots.me :)

oh if you were wondering, semester 2 saga has just begun, and im way over it. gah! the regular weekends of failure to society continues on its legacy. Emotional turmoil have been obviously faded down, better not jinx it! Solitude is good, almost addictive. People seem overly hungry for constant company and stimulation these days, then again, many would consider me reclusive.

anyhow, to myself : no tears upon his departure, time will be your companion thru out the days. and today would be the day where you get the tingly feeling of every kiss he has even given :)

*the ache of the . .

2011-07-17T21:22:00.002+08:00

BRING me back the sun shiny days of Melbourne :*(

the semester is beginning again, not as pumped up as i thought i would be. probably due to the cramps i have at the moment. Not to please with the timetable due to full fridays. gah! oh wells, lets hope all goes well this sem!

2011-07-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

Alright, this is what ive been up to for the pass two nights. Youtubing and reading on articles about Bersih 2.0. At its formation, BERSIH comprised civil society organisations and political parties with the objective of campaigning for clean and fair elections in Malaysia. In case for you foreigner readers out there, its a peaceful protest which took place on the 9th July, streets of Kuala Lumpur by the citizens. the aim was to effectively monitor and demand for a clean political divide.

After hours of viewing horrible and frightening scenes captioned, one word came to mind, SHAME on the government. What is the meaning of government, Mr Prime Minister? Would you care to explain? Maybe all the corruption power has preluded you into the forgotten world of the people's rights and freedom. Doesnt government define the voice and representation of the people. So why are these citizen out there working together as as one to get their voice out. Why are they risking their lives out there protesting for a fair go? Oh and why am i even expressing the people as ''risking their lives''. That is definately not right!its not democratic once, the police force starts abusing the people for freedom of speech. Its not bloody democratic that people are being detained because they are forced to get their IC'S consfiscated by the police.

Shouldnt the government be protecting the people, instead of non negotiating and smoked them all in tear gases unnoticeably. ABSURB!

Malaysia is made out of many diverse groups of nationality, but for this one issue they all came together and reunite. Doesnt this show you how significantly poor the trust between the citizens and the government have?How the ruling power this masked by greed and corruption.

Bless the respected leaders such as Nurul Izzah Anwar, R Sivarasa and etc. Their strong support on Bersih and actions have been accused for organizing an illegal gathering, and this was more than an accused, it was a fine!All are being investigated under Section 4(1) of the Sedition Act and Section 27(5) of the Police Act in relation to the recent 'launch' of the Bersih 2.0 rally.What is this nonsense?!

At the end of the night, i come to think what if Malaysia turned out to be a third world country, like Israel or Pakistan. What would the street of Jln Bukit Bintang be like? Army tanks surrounding the city and patrolling. . pFTTT. .i could go on and on and rant about the whole issue.But maybe i ishouldnt , because who knows the government might track me down on findafullmoon and come hunt and charge me for nternal Security Act, just like Raja Petra( a name whom i dearly adore for his courage to write as he speaks, a true man!)

ANyhow, below would be a video which really touched my heart, and caused little tears. Rip to the brave man who stood up with the crowd whom all wanted to literally ''save'' the country. May Allah be with you!Oh not to forgot that man at the end picking up thrash, YOURE A STAR! . :people like you make Malaysians proud :)

nights yall

* updates updates for sale :)

2011-07-08T15:40:00.004+08:00

A little update from Jeanne's farewell to KL breaks. and paintball!

bummed to caption . .

*melbourne previews

2011-07-01T16:19:00.003+08:00

a photowalk in melbourne . . . . .

credits to Stephanie, a lovely young lady whom captured my hearts with her photos. :)

*the beloved days

2011-06-28T10:20:00.001+08:00

BELIEVE ME . .
EASTERN STATES, you've captured my heart.

caged in Melbourne.
shall resume updating in about 3 days :)
xx

*goodbye blondeness

2011-06-21T14:36:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE ORANGE HAIR :)

*mobile uploads

2011-06-08T01:47:00.007+08:00

some random mobile uploads. . which some dont get the privilage to view. bwahhahahahh!!~
ok thx bye

considering dark roots again!
dry lips go away :(
my april fool's joke! a bruise!
the usual friday sesh!
paintball @ delta!
theparty house mess on a weekday
stingray :(
a very mean master and a good guard dog . ahahah
daphkisses and jeanie

*attacks of the craves

2011-06-06T23:01:00.005+08:00

the current state of mind:

big city , wild lights, endless nights ,high life, silouttes, high end hells, big dreams, sweaty bodies, dance floor , failure of society

tumblr

2011-06-03T12:29:00.001+08:00

you left me an image.

good morning world :)

blogless

* National Tree Day

2011-06-02T21:25:00.006+08:00

Well, i havent really exposed to my readers on what field of study im actually persuing in university. This would be due to the fact where unevitable emotion that everyone would give me which would be the ultimate shock expression. YES, findafullmoon is exactly an ENVIRONMENTAL BIOLOGY & POLITICAL SCIENCE student. There you go. As a mother nature's civilian, you would be wondering what you can do to help give something back to the environment that we live in today. Well now you can, by participating in Toyota's sponsored event, ' National Tree Day'' to call all Australian's to take part in this special day to get their hands dirty and improve their local environment.

The Planet Ark's National Tree Day began in 1996 and it has proved to be more than planting trees. it also promotes bush regeneration, seed collecting and maintenance of past planning sites. This year would be the 12th year Toyota has been commiting to such act to perseve the environment. A few points where we have to look out would be this day, it aims to give a chance for children to be interact more with their nature, and changing their attitude towards conservation. By supporting ,National Tree Day which is the largest single nature care activity in Australian schools allows this oppurtunity for children in schools to learn about their environment and interact with them.

YOU ARENT ALONE IN THIS, people from across the country will be getting involved in thousands of official tree planting and land care activities organised by schools, communities, councils and Toyota Dealers.( hard to believe ay) Last year, 2800000 volunteers planted more than 1.25 million native trees, shrubs and grasses at over 3700 sites nationwide, surpassing Planet Arks 2010, so this year, we should do it better and bigger by beating this record!.

AND WHAT WOULD YOU BENEFIT FROM THIS ?

First, you will be meeting awesome people!!!!!!! hahahah. . People who care about the environment! people like me! :D. ( dont judge) tree hugger is just a ridiculously overrated stereotype!

By planting native trees and shrubs , we get to help combat climate change!!!Which is way important! Reducing greenhouse gas emissions creates a healthier and cleaner environment for you and the future endeavours! Think of the future kids! The more peolpe that get involved means that small contributions can add up to make a big difference! Step by step , and wee!!! We can perserve mother nature's creations for our future kids to see and experience!

So do join the NationaL TREE DAY ! its a great community event and it gives yourselves a chance to have fun whilst making a difference! Get off the modern technology and get healthy.(Turning off the switches from your computer or any other electrical items also is part of an environmental activity which you can contribute too!!!). . Do your bit for the community and feel good about it!!

*shots and shoots

2011-06-01T14:37:00.004+08:00

oright. so it was meant to be posted up ages ago . but uhummm . i too the extra effort to blog about this random nights aboutouts. I FEW pictures to feast the eyes

EVENTS:
KELVINS FAREWELL NIGHT
&
FAR EAST MOVEMENT NIGHT!

so fly like a g6!

xxx

*foodlah: swedish meatballs and interiors

2011-06-01T14:32:00.003+08:00

*foodlaH: Ikea :)
oh come on, sifff fyou dont know what they have at IKEA!
MEATTBALLS. . gahhh speaking of which im craving for them now . .:(
ugh . .anyway, less text and more picto's for this post.

im procastinating on revision! gah exams in exactly 5 days . . up up here we goooo

2011-05-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

ive been wanting to update. unfortunaetly due to my silly technical error with my unii's internet connection, its preventing me from doing this task. forgive me

:(

no harm done

x

*foodLAH: KOKO BLACKS

2011-05-23T01:09:00.003+08:00

*foodLAH: KoKo Blacks

7.6/10

finally, other than san churros and chocolate lounge, Koko Blacks is here in Perth located in the grand Claremont Quarters. this would be dedicated to all Chocolate lovers readers. One major thing i fell in love with was the latte art they produced! ( tracey you're really lucky to be working here ). Goshes its way too pretty , so much effort! We had a few selection of choco's, alongside a rich hot choclate, soy latte, and a innovative ice tea!Chocolate of the moment would be the Baileys :) . Feast up your koko's!

*foodlah: pennys garden

2011-05-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

foodLAH: swan valley penny's garden

6.5/10

do you realize that there isnt a bracket with a what saved it?. well thats because it is been saved. :) umm. i give a 10 star for the environment as it is in the outbacks, great for a sunday morning get away. its the second time here, so you could probablys imagine its not too bad.

well well. . .had the spinachbasil pesto & mushrooms, wrapped in filo pasty & cooked until golden, served on a bed of creamy garlic mash with roast vegies & a splash of red wine gravy.Fresh Atlantic salmon seared medium rare, served on a bed of cos lettuce, warm gourmet potatoes, boiled egg, tomato, anchovy, red onion & green beans and Juicy tiger prawns sautéed with garlic, white wine & cream served on a bed of steamed Jasmine rice .

pretty sure, the last visit we had the famous windy creek port Medallion of Timberhill pork fillet, pan sealed with mushroom & Spanish onion, served on a bed of creamy royal blue

potato mash with steamed season veg and scott fillet steak 300gm of prime Scotch fillet steak char-grilled to your liking, served with a medly of ( without gravy) roast root vegetables .

yums. deffos worth a visit on a sunday morning lovelies. :)

ps: dont forget to stop by lancaster wineries which would be just across the street.

*devotion of low life

2011-05-15T22:05:00.005+08:00

im naked , im lost heading towards a dead end. routeless.

the skies cried a little today. the dense dark clouds hovering it doesnt allow it to leave. this is where comfort hugs and a little companion from a mans best friend is needed. needless to say,gradually the thoughts of little things in life starts to crimp the % of smiles. im quite dysfunctional . i recall my self as a strong minded little creature. i came clean. i suppress my egoist attitude and let the world had its say. the feedbacks werent as great as i thought it would have been . have i walked the wrong path for all this while ?

ramble ramble ramble.

if the misfortunate hadnt happened on the weekends, i wouldnt had lose a friend. words cant never make up what you did.

let me breathe

at home, two person in whom gave me life, the constant issues. let me be and let me live. im no longer that child whom once had no idea what she wants from life. stop making promises which you wont be able to deliver. dictation is not a guiding method.

VACANT: a big heartedly fellow to fill in a big ambiguous female.

*foodLAH: little stove

2011-05-15T21:59:00.003+08:00

foodLAH: little stove

4/10

( what saved it was the wide range of coffee and tea variation)

was kind of hoping they would serve breakfast, but unfortunately by the time we got there it was lunch menu. Oh and speaking of their menu, its so cute and creative. they've used graph sheets and printed the fonts on them . :3. . umm its pretty much in a suburban area, which is quite hidden. pfft, estee found it while she was camping or some sort with her bunch of friends. Had the chicken liver dip while she had the quiche. :) . . oh and a must try would be the turkish coffee.ps;its doggy friendly too

*foodlah: the george

2011-05-11T16:57:00.002+08:00

FOODLAH: the george's

5/10
( what saved it was the dessert)
in conjunction with EAT DRINK PERTH 2011.
took the courage to test THE George OUT.
personally, not very impressed or happy with the food. received a complimentary meal in the end due to the unluckiness.
However, the blueberry tart was orgasmic!

*ccuppies

2011-05-10T18:28:00.003+08:00

6 days of child's play

althought the sun shine has faded away,

it still secretly waits for me to return into its shade of light.

thanks for shining on me for this week :)

it was beyond amazing that you came looking for a moody moon.

loves loves.

i know that you'll always be there for me, likewise for me to you.

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

wilderness issues

2011-05-05T10:23:00.002+08:00

relevant to

wilderness:(def) vastness, virtually unhabitated, absence of disturbance factors.

pretty exciting! welcoming the weeekends today .a little picnic tomorrow with the loves. wee so excited, haven been smiling this much for ages. :3. lets picnikkkooo and kangaroooooo.

how are you starting your weekend?

*fashioncheck: wedding dresses

2011-05-03T08:28:00.002+08:00

*Fashioncheck: wedding dresses x AMQ

yep, even though it was a few days ago, the jealousy of a fairytale dream of kate's still remains. not only the enviousness takes the on the princess title , but as well as the dress designed by sarah burton! . well done ! not too classy, not too traditional, just amazing!

and a little more on boootiful designs by Givenchy, AMQ, valentino

*fashioncheck: Aurello costerell

2011-05-03T08:19:00.004+08:00

*fashioncheck: Aurello costerell.

this designer caught my attention while previewing the melbourne fashion week spring/summer 11 collection.

blast!. check out the bodyline contours, the flares and most of all the neutral colours.

its all about the nude nude nude. .

vogueau

makinglove out of ntg at all..

2011-05-01T20:56:00.003+08:00

the weeks have been dark and down.. shattered dreams of friendship and emotional cries. ive never thought i would be that weak. never in my life, did i tear so much before.

which hurts more? the effort and time placed on broken promises ? the long sinking dead loveship? the sad ended friendship out of nothing?

insanity.

ON THE BRIGHTER NOTE~

one more sleep

no more breakdowns and loneliness for about a week . . a light of sunshine will be coming towards my way . . embracing this time of moment. the sacrifices you made for me :].

i shall cherish the moment.

2011-04-09T23:03:00.004+08:00

are this pictures bright and loving enough to describe my current emotions?

well if you have, im feeling the total opposite of it.

tell me

* ive got jesus on my necklace.

2011-04-03T00:12:00.006+08:00

in the mind, it has been exceedingly being flooded by assignments thoughts. however, majority are due in may! goshes!nevertheless, just like the wise would say , stay safe, and be prepare ahead. the usual tied me down for the week: work, uni, assignments, work, uni assigments.(oh except for this month where the Eat Drink Perth special was going on! in search for more yummy degustations! woohoo!) shall i repeat once again? gah! bring on graduation already! on the other note, apart of me is missing my beloved father. daddy's girl is wanting daddy's appearance. alrightey thats enough for the night. nighties.xx

why are you so absent minded. get away!

late night coffee treat

(fred perry cardi,cotton on singlet, random leopard harems, shanghai heels, bangkok necklace*my favourite)

*fashioncheck: chanel x blakelively

2011-03-16T20:48:00.002+08:00

been ages since i did one of these updates;
this would be an important one not to be missed.
BLAKE LIVELY AND CHANEL . . maximum metal gun ?
Ok maybe Karl isnt that picky at all, he has proven that you dont have to be an Oscar winning actress to be a spokeswoman for Chanel, the legend elegance of all high fashion industry. long shot run?probably?but who would have seen it coming . . .personally a huge fan of misses Serena with her Kate Moss vintage x high fashion mixed style, oh and not forgetting those long long limbs! teheeheh.
Lastly, its not a bad idea Karl bringing a fresh new young look to the brand. I see you growing into the trend of the generation.

xx

the pijjaboi

2011-03-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

randomo picto updates.currently third week and im already starting on my assigments which are meant to be due week 10 or so . cant wait to overload myself next semester to speed up graduation. Neverthless, things are cruising along.( not intending to jinx it ). on life and daily basis updates, im glad i've my family as my backbone, i guess as we grow older we tend to realise and appreciate their gracious contribution to our lifes. however, i somehow wish the mutha would be less ..... ugh.. anyhow, have a good week yall.

(billabong jumpknit,cut up left overs)

it aint me babe.

2011-03-11T13:17:00.003+08:00

i want to know whats going on in that stubborn little head of yours.
after all the crap talk i typed, not a single reply.
probably was a suspense call.
maybe i am that selfish ?
protocol?
you could have voiced out but you didnt.
and no i didnt intentionally wait. it was just curiosity which conquered my emotions .
you = stubbornly clinging to your pride. not always readily alter opinions and behaviour in the request of others.
Because of your stubborn nature dont you realise it makes it harder to accept that there is no virtue in giving what you want to give, rather than virtue of what maybe wanted or needed.
im not avoiding my faults.
me = helpless when it comes to confrontations. my fear of hurting others and also of hostile situations can keep me from reaching my goals.

maybe its time to sneak a little prayer to God, and seek for help.
( by my words of God, somebody out there, no specific callings )

what you wished for. . has come

2011-03-04T00:39:00.005+08:00

absolutely feeling lethargic.

hard breathing respirations.

can you tell me how did this all went wrong?

we shouldnt loath people, as it is as if we are burning our own homes to get rid of a pesty rat. its always ourselves to be blame, not the other party.

goodbye profanities, looking forward to some sort of other way to go through the days.

goodbye to you my wonderful companion.

im ready to breathe the air on the eastern side of this country, mid term breaks im coming.

another day another heartbreak .

*oh yeah . .

2011-03-02T00:40:00.003+08:00

hey

why the fuk would you care when the other party thinks youre attacking them

and giving more excuses to yourself for not carrying your responsibility brings things to the next level.

on the other note:

someone wrote this 好想好好爱你这句话只能藏成秘密 on my wall.

and im sure you know who you are .indeed, we share back and forth situations :)

leavemebaby. . . .

2011-02-27T16:22:00.004+08:00

so technically there will be stuff for you girlies out there:) if you like my dresses,

my treasures may be yours . .

click here, now !!!

http://leavemebaby.blogspot.com/

im seriously leaving them to your hands now :)

*shinagans

2011-02-26T12:17:00.005+08:00

random post on current wants and this is find interesting :)

ps: i need to get rid of lots of my clothings ! ugh!

so over summer :*(

leica

a fur trenchcoat!

sources: everywhr

*Japan 2011.

2011-02-24T12:08:00.013+08:00

alas! im in a productive mood hence here we go a heavy update on my latest trip to japan :)

the pictures are definately not in order, damn folder jumbled up everything. but oh well, some shots were at osaka, tokyo, hamamatsu, kyoto, kansai.

blahblah. . okfeast yourselves :)

accentuate the positive.

2011-02-23T18:33:00.004+08:00

sorry.

my absence has been tagged alongside my horrid experience . my luck ran out i suppose?

today , i met the world of meditation, blank thoughts and i see myself talking to me in the cranium. words whispered:

What do you want? What are you doing?

#1 the farewell of a beloved one, a soulmate a partner in crime from this part of the hallucinating world. sad indeed, his been my safeguard all theway from my first year of uni till present. anyhow, im glad you've finally graduated :) congrats my ben sherman legend .

#2 the absence of my partner in crime caused emotional venturing within myself. where do i stand now? where's my runaway getaway from reality .

#3 deeply missing the lovers you peeps. and yes esp you. at this moment, while im on this verbally expressing my thoughts, you got a fine and a string of unluckiness events. i must definately be a jinx today. bliss NOT!

#4 a hit and hit situation. a bloody bus being irresponsible and irrational and solute into an unfortunate event. what was i tthinking at that moment, a distance was kept between me and the other driver. how did it happen so quickly and me ended up with this.

#5 one particular unit for uni unregistered due to god noes what.

perhaps my mind has packed its luggage and left me to go on hiatus. i feel its discontentedness. perhaps ive to treat it with respect and give it life again! all this negativity must be put into an instance stop. hold on , findafullmoon.

its ok my child, dont hide the tears, as it will resolute into the heart releasing endorphins and the mind will reveal a solution.

utterly unfairness

2011-02-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

i just wish at this very point

that people would stop judging our past. its foolish!~

stop accusing me for something which i honeslty did not commit.

get straight to the point, if you cant promise to give a particular thing , own up to it .

don;t ridiculously give accuses and blaming my past.

horrible!

furious, frustrated, dissapointed.

utterly unfairness!

2011-02-04T00:36:00.003+08:00

''Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming''

in less than half an hour , i began to learn about the secret.

im a moving mountain, and hopefully ill bloom into a an eruption-less volcano

''We don't need to complicate all the "reasons" behind our emotions. It's much simpler than that. Two categories .. good feelings, bad feelings''

* ✈ amazing bangkok!201

2011-02-01T18:16:00.019+08:00

well here you go! behold your patience are being paid off! started off 2011 with an unforgettable short trip ! say SAWADEEEKAPPPPPPPPP. . .

Day One:

Jatujak Markets for a whole bloody day,shop till you drop babeh!

Personally i would really recommend just grab anything which fancies your eyes!Definately pick those which appeals to you, which you personally find very special and different. If you happen to see the exact or similar design pieces around selling them commonly, try to refrain as they might have the exact design in Platinum Mall where you can get it at a cheaper rate! In Platinum usually everything would be sold in wholesale prices if you get 3 pieces or more. That was my weak point, Platinum drowned my bahts!

Day Two:

Floating markets! we decided to do the tourist thing! woohooo and yes it was very interesting! food foood food food ! Oh and Platinum Mall after the markets! More shopping!Oh and so happened on this very day, it was a protesting day for the red shirts! WHAT AN EXPERIENCE! Sam and I were paranoid when the boys decided to get a pair of red shirt which were sold on the streeets! We joked about assassin tracking us back to the hotel and ......... quiet moment. And due to the traffic congestion, we became adventurous and walked all the way back to our hotel, which didnt seem long at all because we were walking through a seem like night market.

Day Three:

Bangkok Palace ! :] Amazing place for photos!
Nerawan Four Headed Temple
MBK mall ( electronics, specifically to change my bb housing!)
Platinum Mall ( again!)
dressing up to Baiyoke Sky Tower! one thing ill never forget here! i made tipsy Cwlor run around the lobby twice with his tomato face! BLISS!! PRICELESS!

OK, im losing touch to blog! goshes! well its gettin late and i cant think of anything else to ramble about ! enjoy the pictures :)

* anticipated disappointments

2011-02-01T12:15:00.004+08:00

* bring me back to the streeets of bkk where i belong

anticipated disappointments.

i picture the thought of snuggling up in your arms unexpectedly and see the horrid priceless facial reaction when your eyes awake. its all just thoughts which cant be brought to reality . why not you ask?an unknown source of answer, waiting to be reasoned.

dont back it up, i refuse to listen.

upset.

bkk 2011

2011-01-12T18:17:00.002+08:00

i had the time of my life :*)
what a great way to start 2011!
i love all three cutie pies!
they bring me smiles and bimbotic moments strucks!
cant wait till the next adventure!

thank you BANGKOK for hosting us!

first of 2011.

2011-01-03T19:47:00.006+08:00

its a brand new year fellow mooners.

well its been a hectic end of the year, hence the hiatus on blogging.

hmm. no expectations this year, ill take it as it goes along. 2011 nice to meet you, as for 2010 it was nice meeting you. for all the things which happened during your period it was fine.goals were achieved and some dreams may be shattered, but hey its another year to take by.

and ah ha! ive achieved my goal in reference to this blog post http://findafullmoon.blogspot.com/2010/01/first-of-2010.html. .ahahah

iVE GOT the puppy my baby bailey :3. tehehe.

2010, ummm not as much of a rollercoaster emotional ride aint it ? i would like to sum up the year as certainly unstably incoherent muddled but somehow smooth.no complains! bliss we got thru the bad tiames!

alas! back home in a few hours time! flyin up on the air soon.what i love about it would be the independence of flying alone.self thoughts and watching the humanitarian doing what they do best ,wondering around like lost soul.

oh btw. 2011 im ready to take you on.!

loves all

ps : to do in 2011, an intern! work on uni !~ do something spectacular ?

2010-12-25T15:04:00.000+08:00

hohum.

merry xmas

* ate me .

2010-11-29T00:44:00.004+08:00

today was marvelous, indulged and got high to the beats of drum and bass,
afrojack, tiesto, benny b, calvin harris. oh boy! all in one, damn right i got STEREOSONICED!

you must detest me right now, for the lack of updates,
all the effort you put into typing and clicking towards a destination which aint reproducing anymore ramblings and fruits. dont delete me nevertheless ! :)
yadada.
well, the summer holidays is up! and im drowning myself with a sumptuous amount of time with work commitments. one month of hard-work and will be paid off as soon as xmas ends. till then tata lovelies.

x

2010-11-17T01:23:00.002+08:00

' some couples are just designed to have fail relations'
-monsters

lets not jump to conclusion.
but hold on?
do you believe?

*sunday afrvos slumbers

2010-11-14T15:18:00.004+08:00

your stubborn head on my shoulders,
our little baby cradled by our sides,
both of my little precious treasures slumbering away into thier own fantasy land,
no technology for interruption.im treasuring this moment.
because theres nothing that can interfere this amazing candid moment.
BLISS!

have a great sunday afrvo world!
x

editted:
we shall wait and see. my predictions may very well come to action.
im proud of myself*pats*, ive achieved snobbing the annoyance and eradicate the anger.
like it or not, hi deal with it .
one day,someone is going to pick me up from the floor and take me up to the roof .
and that wont be you?
wouldnt it ?

2010-11-09T23:28:00.001+08:00

the best awaits at the end of the tunnel .
closing one door and opening another door.
i like the sound of both.

*missus never.

2010-11-08T01:31:00.004+08:00

been having issues with technology recently. ok i lied, i put the blame on my own state of memory.

First, lost in the ecstasy of my missing laptop, after the emotional drama ,is was then to be found in my laundry. SILLY ENOUGH!.

second, my laptop charger has ran away to a better place no where to be found. SILLY ENOUGH!

third, an external hard drive which obviously has gone to a better side of the world,avoiding me of course.SILLY ENOUGH!

saving the best for the last,

woke up from the rarest dream ever. was stuck as a survivor in a zombieland, similarly to l4d the game! Some witch zombie was chasing madly after me and so happened this other survivor threw me a bottle of gasoline. When i was about to pour the flammable on the zombie, i realised that i had no fire. Somehow, i reached out to my pocket and found a lighter! And FLAMES! adious zombie! The last part came, where i ran to a suburban home and was greeted by a lovely middle aged man outside, '' youre safe now''. Oh not to mention, he had golden retrievers ! as i walked thru the front door towards the kitchen, and BAM! my family was there in the kitchen. Weird!im baffled on how dreams are so perplexed and so-related to reality. the mind plays funny games. it wasn't a vague dream, for sure.

alright nights world. .

dope! how you can be so contradictive. you managed to point out faults of someone, and yet you acquire the same faults as well. telling someone how they are wrong, when you practice them yourself. isnt that hypocritical? leaving me with the blame of taking too much of your time, whereas you've opt to go and waste time yourself without my notions. isnt that as bad?

*take a little bit . .

2010-11-03T23:30:00.005+08:00

similar to what obs3ssionsz blogged about before, a picture worth a thousand words.
the perfect snap
whatever i'm seeing is in my head. unsure.
whatever i'm feeling is in my actions. unchange.
fear to get thrilled dreams, when the consequence haunts you in the morning.
what is the definition of a perfect relation? a love story?
can we fall without altering who we really are within.

WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO ME!
nevertheless, my career comes first, priority!
no matter the distance or obstacles, sacrifices should be made.

i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
i lift my lids and all is born again.
(i think i made you up inside my head.)

the stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
and arbitrary blackness gallops in:
i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

i dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
and sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade;
exit seraphim and Satan's men:
i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

-slyvia plath, made love girl song

*rage of anger

2010-10-27T01:09:00.002+08:00

personal emotional ball is wrapping up real quick inside. a sudden rage of anger just whipped up the heart, impounding every inch of the cranium.

the phrase where it comes to mind . .
do you still want this anymore?

its a shame the habit of negative thoughts and chi invades the mind just like that. no solutions just decisions.

why is there always have to be comparisons?just because i dont get something i want.. return my old flame love.where acceptance and honesty is the lust to our love.

*byhug.theshop!

2010-10-25T13:06:00.006+08:00

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i've recently received emails about where i got my maxi dress from! and here you go :

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or the

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